Love Can You Hear me?

We slept next to each other, not touching. My side, your side.

Don't violate.

THe entire time i thought of sex. It seemed so impossible. So cold. So unwanted.

"How could i have ever had sex with him?" passed my mind.

Our bodies still fit right, i'll tell you that. His arm in mine, his hand in mine. His body next to mine. Things were different, further, careful of each other, but they still fit. still felt right.

He rubbed my back and kissed my neck once. Sent shivers.

I pressed closer then left.

I finished my morning alone.


"Thought's infidelity lies in its privacy--'If there is something that you cannot say to me,' asks the lover, 'things that you must think alone, then am I truly your heart?'" (Botton p 48)