A List of Images

At a stop in the road, suddenly. she breaks. Imagine the tears. the red eyes. imagine it. She looks up to see if you're there. You're not. She isn't surprised. It's warm out and there are cherry blossom leaves on the ground. They're burgundy.

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She buys boxes and grabs a box of razor blades. Only one intent. She imagines what it will feel like. While in line se worries they'll know. Worries they can see the swell in her eyes and that she'll be too expressive. She puts them back.

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Consider this: A vase. two. perhaps a vase. perhaps a jug, a pitcher. Maybe they're glass. Maybe they're blue. Decorated. Tilting. Pouring. Liquid.

Imagine that. She needs that now. Anyone's lips. A soul meets a soul. a heart a heart. the give and share of emotions. She holds back.

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She thinks about cutting her hair. Getting a new tatoo. A new way to deface her body.

She remembers the box of blades at the store.

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Picture this: silver savior. cliffs. rocks. it'd be so easy. it'd be so hard. Imagine the wind blowing through your hair, the way it would feel to be free.

Picture this: in a moment two tin cans of life collide. They crush and Crumble. They're no magnets. repelled by heart force.

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She doesn't care anymore. there's too much. Farther farther.

iceburgs

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Sunken and she tried so hard to be.

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Vomit. colored with breakfast. Colored with blood. Toilet swirling, eyes wiped, a glance in the mirror. look at what you are.

more vomit.

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The warmth and the cold. the mixing. it make syou nauseous.

She thinks of all the words she gave away. The ones she won't get back.

it's too late now. it's too late. don't try and more it's too late.

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Consider this:

She stands isolated, not by force, of free will.

Consider this:

She's watching you, her eyes burning (not from tears, don't be mistaken) and she won't see a thing.

She doesn't want to anymore.