entry from a week ago that never got posted:

All i have now are the memories of tastes and a handful of faded memories... purple candies and the brown one i made you eat. Chokingly sweet sugar cubes dissinigrating on my tounge and the skip-slow-beat of my heart whenever i was with you. Pink lollipops being traded from mouth to mouth and your arm around me. ice cold water on warm warm days and strong liquor running down my throat. The alcohol and smoke lingering in your kiss and the sharpness of toothpaste. The rumble roughness of underground trains and echoey click of our heels in the tunnels. The girlish giggle streaming over my lips and the unbearable hotness of walking too fast. My fear of being over aggressive and wind rushing over windows we stood out of looking for stars. the thrill of city lights and thunder and flashy smoke.

I wish it could have lasted forever.