I write in this thing less and less... and when i do it's when i get SO emotional i overflow into here. so i'm sorry if all my entries seem upset or sad or depressing or angry. cause usually.. i AM those. i mean... if i were HAPPY why the FUCK would i sit at my computer to talk about it!? why not ya know.. go out and BE happy. and so that's JUST what i do... Halloween tomorrow. my grandma's bday today and i TOTALLY forgot. i feel like SUCH a fucking asshole. gggrrrrrr wrote a letter to Kevin just for the hell of it (no emotional cry baby-ness) and i watch dark angel like NO other. that's the end of my story.