Going to Santa Cruz with Family Girls this weekend. being kidnapped.

Feeling suffocated by my family and more myself again. can we all say relapse? RELAPSE.

feeling lonely again. always lonely.

Hung out with boy last night. Watched "The Seven Ages Of Bob" (even though i think plays are supposed to be underlined), ate pizza, got him coffee and home by 12 on a thursday. Mom wasn't too happy. Sydney almost got caught in lies.

Had a dream i was out with boy again. we sat close and then he kisses my cheek. he put his arm around me and we just sat there leaning into one another. I was sad to wake up. I guess i forgot how lonely i really am. Had nothing to REALLY do with the boy. just the dream caught me up... ::sigh:: i forgot i was so lonely...

took a nap in class. another boy dream. went home and slept more. yet another one. It's really hurting to have to wake up... I always wake up alone. usually cold too.