WIth Black on like Always and Your Thin Frail Bones

There are times when I wish it were all the same

But it isn't

We can doubt love and use words like "dear" and "lovely" and "honey"

You're always the one no one expects for this to be about.

You're always the one to throw me off balance.

I have this need to please you, to give to you,
To give myself to you.

And sometimes i hate you for it.

I take it back, I couldn't hate you any longer.
Not another moment.

And maybe that's what's made this difference,
The gap that doesn't cause
squeals
or
jumps

The difference
that i no longer hate you,

You no longer hate me.

Because with our hate came love, fierce love,
Passionate in all regards.

We held hands when we weren't supposed to

But meant it more than ever.

We're mild now, call it
tired
if you will.

WE're simply mild tempered
mild mannered

we've grown into
reservation.

And i wanted to tell you
That any touches
other than

his

Are uncomfortable,
forced.

But communication is easier

with hundred mile distances.

And i need you to love me still,

Selfish, i know.

But i need to have you to love.