It's Funny The Routines In Which we Fall

To counter my last post which was dripping awfulness i'll write cute little love letters to all my bests.

Laura,

I was thinking of the other day when i said i'd love you more than any boy. and you said you knew and it scared you cause i'd always love a boy more than you. I wasn't sure what you meant, but it's been stuck in my head. Did you mean to imply i only slightly love you? that's not the case. There are different kinds of love. Mine for you is unchanging. It's harder, stronger, quieter. And any boy, he'll have a different part of me, but never the one that's yours. Boy love is lighter, sweeter tasting, loud and pliable. And don't be sad in Portland for whatever reason you're sad. I don't have a very good reason as to why you shouldn't be sad, or a way to make you happy... i just know you shouldn't be sad.

Andrea,

Well, i'll be honest, sometimes i get frustrated with you. and rather than swim in your hair i wouldn't mind giving it a tug or two. But, that's why i love you. because you're not some retarded pussy girl that gets all butt hurt over anything and causes SO much drama for no apparent reason. (I guess not like me?). But, when i get frustrated and mad at you, i can tell you. and you say "i'm sorry" and you try not to do it anymore. or at least, i think you do. and when you tell me something *i've* done i try and work on it too. That and we don't have to talk ALL the time or see each other EVERY day to have us still knwo that we're friends. good friends. It makes me feel as if we're grown ups. (ok, notreally just pretend). But if i need good times i can depend on you to have them with me. and if i'm going through not so good times i can depend on you to at least listen to me endlessly whine and if you can help, i know you'd try. And i hope you can depend on me for the same. oh, and i love you.

Adolfo,

listen, i know you're dating adam. And i'll admit, first i was really hurt. i didn't get out of bed for weeks. but i'm over it. and i don't hate you. I'm glad you two can be happy together. And at least you can refer to him in his real name now. not "winston" just "adam."

just kdiding.

But adolfo, you're like the love of my life. You have every single great guy quality i could have ever imagined. Hm, i don't know how to describe how i love you without making it seem like i want you to go straight an dhave my babies (but the offer is up if you are). Let's see... You're like my prince charming without the skeevey straight guy parts that wanna put it in me. You're the first boy that ever treated me well and so i think i partially fell in love with you (in a friend way). And I'll always love you for that, for being the first male to make me feel worthwhile. That and you're hott.

ANd that's all...

well, i GUESS adam counts as a best friend. but i'm with him all the time, he needs no cheesy love letter in my blog.

If you think i'm retarded by now, i'm sorry. but, i'm really bored and sorta PMSy therefore slightly emotional. it means i crap out things like this.

SO i'll stop now