Once someone told me that when i smiled my eyes did too. THat they lit up and i became so bright i was beautiful. It was a long time ago when i was younger and i spent years hiding behind my smiling eyes, my shining eyes. Hiding all the sadness and fear and hurt and anger. Hiding everything. They hid so much that they dulled. My eyes hold no brightness. No happiness. No light and smiles. Just a frightened little girl with a pout playing along her lips.

Won't you see that i'm not worth any time or effort? that i'm nothing special so you've no reason to love me?

*nothing is real anymore*