I fucking hate you so much because i refuse not to care. because i'm the one that's still sticking up for you behind your goddamned back and you can't even take teh time to notice that i DO care. i hate you because you refuse to let ANYTHING good in. because everything is the worst thing on earth and you're a cynical bitch. because i've loved you for as long as i've known you and you've always pushed me away. Because everything with you is black and white and always your fault. I hate that you can't EVER see. open you're fucking eyes. take it all in. You think i don't know you're throwing your life away?


... i'll be surprised if you live ...