My weekend has gone wonderfully.

on top of everything i also found out that my sister's departure is being pushed from jan. 11th to dec. 26th. a mere day after chirstmas. how could they!?

how can this behappening?! I love her *so* much. i need her so much. how am i uspposed to LIVE without her?! who's going to love me? who's going to be there???? I can't even begin to tell her how much i need her or miss her because i know she needs this. I love her and because of that i cannot place any guilt or hindrance on her leaving becaus ei know this is what she wants. I love her *so* much that i coudln't bear to ask her to stay for me. she isn't doing this to me. she's doing it for her. of all people she deserves that. deserves happiness.

and so. i will tell her i love her, i'll never stop, i'll always be here, and that i hope this happiness she is working on works out for her.

And on other hands...

cu-cu-cu-controversial.