all's well in the world of sydney.
or so i suppose.
sorry for being stupid.
BUT!!!
my computer is totallt tweaking. i'm blaming it on the new windows updates i did last time i was on my comp. cause that's the only thing i did differently. that or i've contracted a virus.
gr i wish i were more computer literate.
Monday, September 06, 2004
Sunday, September 05, 2004
I deserve it.
I wanted you to be online. i'm tempted to call.
because i need someone to yell at. i need someome to blame. i need someone to cry to.
look at what i have.
nothing.
it's ruined now. it's corrupted now.
what's the point of love if you know it's almost over? For once in what felt like a long time i was happy. i've been happy so long now i'ts all sort of boring. but not this time. not this week. i was *happy* you know the kind, the one type i used to hope for. the type with passion and sparle glitter MAGIC.
We've even talked about wedding rings.
and now here i am. crying and alone. everyone is gone now.
We say we hope we can fix it. "everything will be alright."
how many times have we heard that?! how many times have there been when it wasn't alright?!
It's never alright when it's really matters.
because i need someone to yell at. i need someome to blame. i need someone to cry to.
look at what i have.
nothing.
it's ruined now. it's corrupted now.
what's the point of love if you know it's almost over? For once in what felt like a long time i was happy. i've been happy so long now i'ts all sort of boring. but not this time. not this week. i was *happy* you know the kind, the one type i used to hope for. the type with passion and sparle glitter MAGIC.
We've even talked about wedding rings.
and now here i am. crying and alone. everyone is gone now.
We say we hope we can fix it. "everything will be alright."
how many times have we heard that?! how many times have there been when it wasn't alright?!
It's never alright when it's really matters.
Monday, August 30, 2004
Life Plan
So, I've spent about half an hour going through the req.s to acquire an AA in english (my chosen major) at CSM. Therefore, I've mapped out the next year and a half (Two years?) of my life. Isn't that scary? I feel so grown up and so small all at once.
And I've thunked it out. An apartment in the city is, if lucky, $1,500 a month, if i could get two roomates and we each got paid about $9.50 an hour and worked 40 hours a week then it'd work out. The possibilites of that happening are pretty hard but hell, I can hope.
And THAT! is the plan for the next two years.
And I've thunked it out. An apartment in the city is, if lucky, $1,500 a month, if i could get two roomates and we each got paid about $9.50 an hour and worked 40 hours a week then it'd work out. The possibilites of that happening are pretty hard but hell, I can hope.
And THAT! is the plan for the next two years.
