I can still feel your lips brushing mine and i can feel myself breaking inside and i can feel the warmth of everything you mean to me.

You make me feel alive again.

Let's compare our rankings, our rates, our numbers. because that **so** shows you're a better person than me.

He's a liar. A LIAR. A LIAR. he's nothing but a fucking liar.

I was more than idiotic to ever hope for anymore. i was naive to think he could be telling the truth.

Mistake Number Two.

there's a whole lot i can say about what he's said but i'll just sum it up with... he misses me. or so he says. i feel like last resort. like he doesn't miss me at all but he's just so desperate and lonely he's begun to tell himself he misses me. And while it's nice to hear and all... it just feels bogus. like he's just using me as a passing amusement and the SECOND he gets busy with something else i'll be forgotten again. not only can i NOT feel for kevin again because it hurts too goddamned much to know it's impossible but i can't feel for him again and have to deal with him abandoning me again. i couldn't deal with being neglected again. i did it once and i refuse to open myself up to him only to force myself to close. :sigh: i just can't let him hurt me again because if i let him back into my life i know he'll hurt me. Hell, this is ALREADY hurting and he hasn't even done anything.

Does this make him my one that got away?