10:20 and the rooms still cold. the sun hasn't come out, it never comes out until it's too late.

I told them all i want to hurt you. That i wanted to directly inflict the deepest pains i could. i wanted to push you and watch you fall.

I wasn't lying.

I want nothing more than to see the pain flash across your face, an uncontrollable earth shaking pain. I want to make you human. I want you to know what it feels like to be real.

Because you're fake.

Your full of lies and betrayals and manipulations.

I want to be over this and over you.

But I'm afraid i can't be until i see you hurt.