Good Friday

Chippendales in hawaii.

uh oh.

(edit: didn't end up going.)

So i did something i maybe shouldn't have done.

and i felt all like "yay" earlier but now i'm muddled cause i'm a stupid nosey girl that goes snooping in places where her nose doesn't belong. and to make it worse i'm even more girly by being jealous and stupid and doubtful.

what hell. that's why i'm supposed to go to bed at 12 each night. it's 4 and i've somehow convinced myself that adam no longer loves me.

i don't need anyone anyways.


god, who am i kidding. i'm so pathetic.

To The Someone You May Not Expect

So it's saturday night and 2 o clock. i've just gotten home and i wish you could see me. See my hair curled but now faded. My makeup dark but now smeared.

I wish you could see me all dressed up and then ready for bed. Because maybe you'd tell me i'm beautiful.

And maybe that's all i've wanted to hear.

Untitled for a Reason.

I wanted to tell you
What it feels like

To have him inside me
Over and over and over

Until he cums

With my legs
In awkward places