I deserve it.

I wanted you to be online. i'm tempted to call.

because i need someone to yell at. i need someome to blame. i need someone to cry to.

look at what i have.

nothing.

it's ruined now. it's corrupted now.

what's the point of love if you know it's almost over? For once in what felt like a long time i was happy. i've been happy so long now i'ts all sort of boring. but not this time. not this week. i was *happy* you know the kind, the one type i used to hope for. the type with passion and sparle glitter MAGIC.

We've even talked about wedding rings.

and now here i am. crying and alone. everyone is gone now.

We say we hope we can fix it. "everything will be alright."

how many times have we heard that?! how many times have there been when it wasn't alright?!

It's never alright when it's really matters.