Cry # 1:

I wanted to fall in love with portland. i wanted to be swept away by the city of roses.

isn't that such a pretty thought? The City of Roses.

 
I miss you too.

 

I almost forgot what it felt like just being with you. you, the only one whose ever known.

Cry #2:

It feels like the beginning of the end for us. and your cat and your mom and how much stupider could we have been?

But i love you too much to leave you. so i'll lay here and love this pain.

Cry #3:

who would have thought they could have such a perfect life without me. because they're all there, and i'm the only one who isn't. i know it was my own choice, i know i should have gone back.

but i didn't.

and now you've all realized how much you really don't need me. how our family is missing so much less when i'm not around.

I hope the sun has filled your dreams and i hope you can love me hidden here in my cave.