ok! so, i'll actually make a real post. Not a half sentance thought. it's currently 2:37. i wish it were 3. but anyways...

this weekend felt a tad anti social so i stayed home. all alone. which, like always, led to depressive panic attack-y nights. but, nothing really. i did get to watch some MASSIVE animal planet. so many shows, so little time. and i watched a butt load of movies. So, mostly, just catching up on my potatoe time. yes, yes, seems i've about evened it out and i'll die at approximately the same age as teh rest of my generation. oh joy beyond all joys.

ANYWAYS. today, there were issues ordering my prom dress, will admit, a tad annoyed. and then i made a vet appt. for ma pupppy doog. yes, doog. not dog. and now i'll send a check in to san mateo juvenile traffic court. and then help adam fin da tux ad such. and, then, yea. ooh1 but while dealing with irritating prom order issues, i got them to 2nd priority mail it. which, yes, does mean i SHOULD get it in 5 - 8 days. does that start today? or when i placed the order? either way, that's a bit better than 6 - 12. :sigh: what if it doesn't get here!?!? and no issues with the cell phone YET. should come b/w wed. and fri. good times all around. doot doot doot doot.

it's been a long long cold day. tiring. i can't wait to just cuddle into bed, nice and cozy warm. ::sigh:: i'm waiting for 3 so i can leave to go pick up adam. another 15 minutes or so.

BUT HEY!!!! 46 DAYS OF SCHOOL LEFT!!!

**mass** good times. knowing the number makes it seem so close. turned in my request for ex. grad. tickets today. hopefully i'll get three. i still feel bad for having to exclude 3 of my siblings.

i think the school, just because i'm minority, should give me all the tickets i want. is it my fault my mom couldn't take some damn birth control!? babies suck. i never want one.

nor do i want to get married. i don't think i could really be a "for life"-er. dedicate myself to one person for that goddamned long. seems rough, too rough. i mean, look around, where did happy marriage go?

romance?

destiny??

oh well, like any of that was useful anyways. hey, lol even though it's not really funny, you guys remember when i lost faith in the world? ahhh, the bad times. but so good.

and by good i mean character building, terrible, disgusting, and stupid.

is this enough now??!?? like anyone reads this.

they don't.