WHOA!

blog has changed itself. freaky deaky. how the hell do i work this thing!?

but.... ANYWAYS! long time no blog? mwahha.

for updates...

wednesday was tiffany's birthday. WOOT WOOT SHE'S ILLEGAL! saturday was her surprise party. loads o' fun. right? yea, whatever.

erhm.... AGHK. this new blog thing is really tweaking with me.

I have eyeliner all over me from sleeping.

but to go on with what i really came here to rant about....

WHY CAN HE STILL DO THIS TO ME?! one word and i'm totally his. one little anything and he fucks with my head so hardcore. and then i won't talk to hear from him for a couple months. i'll readjust to life without him and be quite happy WITHOUT him until he comes right back. comes back just to remind me that i can hurt.

because i love adam. i do. and "boy" has the GREATEST talent at reappearing just as adam and i have like the SLIGHTEST issue. something teeny tiny that i shoudln't care about and then there's stupid "boy" coming back for more. does this make any sense?!!? i doubt it.

ya know what? i know it doesn't.

because i really really liked "boy" but that shouldn't matter now, right? cause i'm with adam. adam and i are doing good, we're doing great. That little list inside my head that i've been adding to since the beginning of forever on what makes perfection... and so much of it is there. so much, all th emuch that matters is there with adam. and i KNOW this. "boy" doesn't make that go away.

but he adds the question... "how can you love adam if deep down you still love me?"