I wanted so badly to find what was lost, to hold what has slipped away.. I wanted to love you so much that i forgot all the reasons why i shouldn't. i wanted so much. i want so much. so much that can't be had. that just can't be. Force cannot make sincerity and your lack of responce cannot stop this heart from beating. I feel nothing. I want consumption and rapture once more. I want every smile given and every kiss taken. I want those breathes you stole away and the security you ripped from me. I want somethign substantial and somethign new. i want the games to stop and... and... and...

I just want the hurt to stop.

Sexual frustration reigns. Nothing more to write about.

I feel so lost and afraid and at the edge of every tear. Like i'm fallng apart with no where to fall. Sinking back into old memories i miss what we all called "good times" and "fun times" and maybe really meant it.

I miss security and comfort.

Leaving DIsneyLand is like beign forced to abandon your recently lost childhood.