I Like to Kiss your Unresponsive Mouth

vulgar and hard.

and that's all i've to say right now.

those two words.

vulgar.

hard.

This is what they call Exhaustion.

Work to the max.

cleaning mass.

Xmas in 5 days, are YOU ready!?

Money in the bank, YAY!

She's elegant and she means it.

The sun rose slowly, serenely. no rush on beauty. No rush of pinks, blues, purples. There's nothing like the fog heavy sunset, nothing like feeling family again. There's nothing like morning drives and morning walks with company.

I realize how much I miss you when you're home. I realize how you've always known me. I realize that you were always apart of me.

My hair is straight, my makeup smudged and only now do i see beauty. SOmething vaugely pretty beneath whatever it is that's the real me.

I'm lacking sleep and I'm lacking life. It's like something has been drained out of me, but i'm too old to fight it anymore. I'm too young to be so old. I'm too hungry to be so thin. I'm too awake to be this dead.

I'm too happy to only be content.

FREEEEEEDOM!!!!!

NO MORE SCHOOL NO MORE SCHOOL NO MORE SCHOOL

Finals

Yesterday I Aced a 100 question Biology test that I didn't study for.

Today I wrote an 8 page paper.

by hand.

Today I gave a speech with only a minute prep time.

By Tomorrow I have to turn in at least 40 articles, 6 questions about topics i don't know, and some other stuff...

By thursday I have to have completed my 4 page history report, 13 movie reviews, and 8 chapter questions.

4 down, 2 to go.

Now on to Lasagna and Minestrone times.

You're Supposed to be Gone.

Last night I had another dream about you. Even though i've sworn to forget.

I think i saw you in your car, the same care from before, the one i couldn't name. And i was with Chelsea, it might have been Daisy. It was one of my friends that matters but I never see but their memory affects me.

We saw you and they (my friend) told me to say hello. I was hateful and angry but mostly scared and excited. I said hello.

You were bigger than when I was with you and you asked me if i wanted to hang out.

I said yes and we went to Starbucks to have a cookie and you had some coffee and I knew i wasn't supposed to be there.

I was supposed to be with Him, not You. I was supposed to be with tthe Him that matters to me, the real one, the one that doesn't just come in dreams. But that didn't make me leave. Everyone said I should stay.

We talked of things I can't remember and I lied about it later.

That's all that seems clear to me now.

Final Self Evaluation

What skills have you learned that you will take with you? Explain.

What do you feel you still need to work on?

If you were grading yourself on demeanor, attitude, performance, attendance, and participation what grade do you feel you ahve earned and why?

What would you cahnge if you could?

Review yourself and state how your practices have affected your progress?

Saturday Night

In short panting breaths each little sob came. I could only inhale. The pressure in my head grew tears streamed down my face. The lights blurred and the lines were lost and I could only wish it would stop.

Dun DunDunDun

In case any one was wondering...

I do in fact know how to play Carol of the Bells in piano.

And I do not know how I got to be only the coolest person EVER.

PS today i lost my keys in the mall while christmas shopping. then, after frantically seaching for what felt like ever I found them. All snug and safe at the security office. They were a little scared, gaurds said they cried for a while. THey were glad to be home and oh how i missed them.

The End

I've spent too long whispering thoughts I should never have thought.

I've told you too many times that I miss you.

I've wasted my words on you.

This is the last time. The last time you will read me saying that you'll always have such a part of me. The last time i say that it's too late. The last time i'm left waiting.

Here is my closure.

Goodnight.

(say goodnight, mean goodbye...)

"A Writer's Reference"

You looked at me and said "There's just something about you that makes you seem tall."

And it felt like the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me.

LOVE

Sometimes we don't kiss until we say goodbye...