Wicker Park

Watched wicker park last night with adam and adolfo.

it was good times i recommend it.

but... issues remain.

will i ever just come right out and say it?

Misery, That's what it is...

God, i hate school.

Just seems like nothing is good anymore...

Grrr to Windows

So i fixed my computer... sorta...

see i backed up a file here or there of my personal crap and decided i could just throw the rest of it away. i mean, i could, that's not my problem.

and then i used all the happy restore reformat disks and yay, i have a "new" computer.

got my files and resaved 'em onto this one. redownloaded AIM. buncha fun...

but for some reason... now i don't have word. WHAT THE FUCK!? i *need* Word. and NO, not stupid "works word processor"but Word. Not only because it's files are compatible with more computers (lesson i learned the hard way at high school.) but i liked Word. I used to have Works but then i got my new computer (this one) and it had it. Now, why after restoring it does it not have it?!? and i thought i maybe lost a disk... but i don't think so. stupid me. ANYWAYS, i had works, then i got Word now i just Like it better. The fonts it comes with, the way things work out.

so maybe i'm a stupid baby.

but adolfo...

thing #1: i DID read your warnings on the updates!
Thing #2: HELP ME GET WORD BACK!

One Year

Well yesterday was our one year.

it was good times. buncha stuff.

enda story. yay.

Nutter Butter Peanut Butter Cookies

all's well in the world of sydney.

or so i suppose.

sorry for being stupid.

BUT!!!

my computer is totallt tweaking. i'm blaming it on the new windows updates i did last time i was on my comp. cause that's the only thing i did differently. that or i've contracted a virus.

gr i wish i were more computer literate.

I deserve it.

I wanted you to be online. i'm tempted to call.

because i need someone to yell at. i need someome to blame. i need someone to cry to.

look at what i have.

nothing.

it's ruined now. it's corrupted now.

what's the point of love if you know it's almost over? For once in what felt like a long time i was happy. i've been happy so long now i'ts all sort of boring. but not this time. not this week. i was *happy* you know the kind, the one type i used to hope for. the type with passion and sparle glitter MAGIC.

We've even talked about wedding rings.

and now here i am. crying and alone. everyone is gone now.

We say we hope we can fix it. "everything will be alright."

how many times have we heard that?! how many times have there been when it wasn't alright?!

It's never alright when it's really matters.