Just got home.

Long Time no update....

It's Thursday. Leaving to Europe in an hour.

will be back 06/30

Plan:

Tomorrow: Finals and maybe hanging out with T. after school
Friday: more finals. last day of school. hair cut. out with T.
Saturday: city adventure/The exploratorium with J.
Sunday: Father's day. Reserved by family. BBQ at mine.
Monday: FIRST DAY O' SUMMER
Tuesday: sleep in, shop, pack.
Wednesday: way more packing. last minute crap.
Thursday: EUROPE!!!


This will be the summer of a lifetime.

Artists I Absolutely Adore:

1. Michelle Branch
2. The Eels
3. Britney spears (shamefully looks down)
4. Saves the Day
5. Trembling Blue Stars
6. The Get Up Kids

Can I Play The Monster this time?

SATs today! Yay for me. I skipped 22 questions. Dear god I suck.




Highlights of my day so far:

1. Knowing you've gotten better. That you're happy now.
2. Finding my cellphone.
3. getting Jeremy's week old text message. even though i never talk to him and rarely think of him. it was still nice haering from an old friend.
4. Getting lost and making it better screaming The Get Up Kids
5. Finding my T.G.U.K's CD
6. Falling asleep on the carpet
7. Eating my Dora teddy ghram cookies after being incredibly hungry all through SATs
8. Hugging my older sister. I needed it.
9. Knowing that not matter what you say and even if you wished against it we'll always be apart of each other's lives
10. Reminding myself that everything will always be OK and knowing deep down, even though I've my doubts, that it's true

I feel like crying for a lost best friend.


....Of course I feel Betrayed. Of course I hate you now. I look at who you are now and all the things you're saying and I'm disgusted. Then I Remind myself that it was me that changed. That this is what it has to be.

I like to look at you and laugh at what you've become... Nothing.

People I *enjoy* talking to on a daily basis:

1. Tiffany
2. Adolfo
3. Grace
4. Brandon
5. "boy"
6. Daisy
7. Myself

yea...

Working on my Journal Project.

AHCK!

I like to list myself out...

Things I want:

1. A tattoo along my ribs. (see me for details)
2. An incredible connection with another person that's lasting
3. A GREAT apartment. fuck the house. i want an apartment/condo that's just fucking great.
4. Faith.
5. Love. (i know i've got it now but a different sort of love)
6. People around me I can truly call my friends.
7. Independance
8. One lesbian experience
9. A career that I love. and if not Love then at least a sort of routine in it that i'm comfortable with.
10. More than 3 stamps on my passport.

Curly Cheetos, panda backpack, Super high pony tail, a giggle, contacts, light black eyeliner, computer, keyboard, skittles , office, sunlight, beaches, bubbles, ice cream, rides, sexual jokes, tutoring on Mondays, mexxy car, silver car, sticky tack, ribbons, pink, windows wide open and the wind blowing through.... THis is what I'm made of...

Glitter snazz and pastel Chiffon.



This is what I'm made of...

I dreamnt some guy grabbed my ass. I pushed him up against a pole/wall and began to beat him. He turned blue. then bloody. Then things swelled to an incomprehensible mess. I still kept punching him. i called him "a disgusting, dirty, genetic lab rat." (odd, i know). Coulter breaks it up with "i KNOW you're going through a hard time right now, Sydney, but is this *really* worth going to jail over?!?"

When i woke up both my hands were sore and achy.




Note To Brandon: you'll DIE if you keep this up!

Friday: Sonny's Birthday dinner.
Saturday: to San Jose to San Bruno to San Francisco to Pacifica back to San Francisco then to Half moon bay and then Montara to Home again.
Sunday: Santa Cruz for about 3/4 hours. drove home.Back to Santa Cruz for about 2 hours. Home again.

Weekend Overveiw: Bored. irritated. can we all scream PMS?!